Good evening, this is the first blog I have written in a long and I mean LONG time. This will not be the last because I have so much on my mind, that one blog just wont suffice for the feelings that run through my heart each and everyday. I am hoping by the completion of this blog, I will feel like a weight as been lifted from my heart and hopefully soon I will no longer feel this way I am feeling at this very moment...So enough with the chitter chatter, let me get now to the nitty gritty, lol....
So...let me start with the true topic of this blog-RELATIONSHIPS...and Imma be str8 up with you, I am not that keen on them but I at least try to my chance in them. But it seems as though every dude that was pursued or did the pursuing turn out to be crazy, except one who is a good friend now. Now don't get me wrong, there has not been many, only a few and I'm not one to just put my feelings out there, but when I fall into (like), I fall HARD...sad to say, but I'm just a truly kind and VERY caring person and that just seems to be what happens when I find somebody I truly like. Now there is something special bout you if I experience this for you. It may take a min or so for you to find this out from me verbally, but I'm a true believer of "actions speak louder than words" and my actions are clear: smiles, the laughter, the texts...all keen signs that I'm feeling you...and let's not forget the good old fashion, "I like you;" yea I said it....There was a time, where I wouldn't have and would have just let you slip by....The Scenario...So there's this dude, but there is also a lack of communication...a relationship can not survive or even begin, in this case, without it. Communication is the key to it all; yea there is trust, commitment, and all the other good stuff we know...but these other components would be nothing with conversation...Am I right, or am I right? You tell me, you probably no more...but then again I need to stop making that comment because just cause somebody has been in a number of relationships, doesn't mean that they actually learned from them...hmmm...food for thought...
Well all in all, I think, no I know I have said it a number of times, that I am just gonna leave it alone but somehow, someway, the thought continues to resurface and truly wont disappear until I know...not until I KNOW...man I think I be doing the most, so I back off, but I just wont to know, IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK...hmm...so think it is...but I think I'm through for tonight and hopefully one day I can truly say I have become the full grown butterfly that I aspire to be, spiritually, mentally, and physically because right now I feel as though I am still in the cocoon.
Ps. thanks to bestest and my ace (subj to change, need suggestions, u kno who u are, lol) for encouraging me but like the gospel song says "Sometimes we gotta encourage ourselves." Thanks for the inspiration and constant support thru this all...one day we will kno the deal with riverside, hopefully soon....
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yes. relationships are tricky. No two are alike. Things will work themselves out and through out life we will have a whole bunch of maybes, but never a yes. The yes is rare and hard to find. So i'm simply not looking anymore. It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen, as Jordin Sparks song says!
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